Sorry, I’m out of order but I’m on my way to fixing myself

From the second I knew you, I could tell that there was something about you that had me hooked, simply by the sound of your voice . I connected with you so easily and quickly. That spoke mountains to me, for me to be able to open up to you and talk to you the way I did. I knew we would be something. Something beautiful and disastrous, something weird and amazing, something worth fighting for, something worth holding on to and we had that. It was multifaceted and explicit and pure and real and addictive. We had our issues but we also had each other.

We invested our emotions, our thoughts, and our time in us. I know that that that brought us happiness.I know that I made you as happy as you made me in the short time we were together. We weren’t boring or perfect. We were crazy and broken and we somehow found a way to make that work, hell I’m surprised it lasted as long as it did. I hope that when you look back at us, that you smile and are grateful for the time spent.

Looking back, I am not mad or upset. I do not hate you or wish you the worst. I am very proud of you for realizing that you needed to do what was best for you and at that time in life that wasn’t me. I am only sorry that I couldn’t do more for you. But whatever you set out to do in this life, I wish you nothing but the best. I wish you forever of happiness and laughter. And I wish that you accomplish all of the dreams you set for
yourself.

You know as well as I do that you’ll miss my texts, my calls, my insecurities, my mood swings, my arguments and my silly questions and conversations but now I gotta fix myself up for real.

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Author: whinney

Me? oh, we finally hit upon a subject on which I'm an expert.

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