2AM thoughts

What is more difficult than faking love?

Hiding the love, just to be friends, cause God! Everytime you sit down next to me, I forget how to breathe. And I want to be clingy but I’m afraid if I’m too clingy, you won’t like me anymore.

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A year old

Anniversary guys. It’s been a whole year since I started this platform and this might be my last post on it for a while.

There’s truth in the fact that this isn’t my last post ever. But, for the next year, I’m hoping that it will be. Writing has been a treasure in more ways than one. For starters, it’s what gave me confidence to face my feelings up front.

While I’d always enjoyed the kinds of stories books I read shared with the world, I looked at writers and envied them.

I envied how prose dripped from their fingertips.

I envied how easy their words came.

I couldn’t be them.

Until I became one of them

All it took was a leap of faith. It was one moment of courage, and an article about all the things I wanted to say to the man I loved that ghosted me; all the things I was too afraid to say.

And I can say it’s been an exhilarating year… Not only have I written those words but many more.

And that’s why I’m taking a year off to focus on other things instead.

I know I’ll be back, and hey, maybe this time next month, the fire to write another post will burn and I’ll look like someone who easily goes back on her word.

That’s okay, too.

But, there’s something to be said about recognizing when it’s time to move on to other ventures.

Writing is all about sharing your story, right?

Life always comes back to timing just as it does finding the courage to muster up the strength to push on the rims of your comfort zone.

This is my outer rim.

For those of you who have stood by me and read my posts, racked up likes, I cannot thank you enough.

I endured heartbreak that was near crippling. And just might be going through another one which to be honest, is worse than the last. I wrote about it so I could remind myself it’ll be okay.

The past year has taught me that there’s truth in the written word, and I’m eager, now to go out there and chase it.

Maybe I’ll change numbers and ghost my Instagram and Whatsapp too. Maybe.

Without this platform, though, I wouldn’t be close to where I am now. From the depths of my heart, thank you.